Choking

Lying on the ground I see your eyes
Why won’t you look at me?
Feeling your foot on my throat
Why won’t you look at me?
You know what you did to me
Why won’t you look at me?
The words won’t come out
Why won’t you look at me?

Awake or dreaming, coming or leaving
You just won’t go away
Like picking at a scab
This wound won’t heal
I didn’t ask for this
I didn’t want you in my life
A symbol of pain, a reminder of the past
You bring out the worst in me

I can’t say it with your foot on my throat
Run away
Leave me alone
I don’t want to know you exist
Kill yourself

I’ll never forgive you
I’ll never want to know you
Is that why you haunt me?
Is that why you hurt me?
Thief. Liar. Cheat. Bastard.
You’re nothing more, you never will be

Suffocating but not dying
Can’t extinguish my hate
Why do you hang on?
Groping for something not yours
To hurt, to harm, to steal
I want you out of my life

I can’t say it with your foot on my throat
Run away
Leave me alone
I don’t want to know you exist
Kill yourself

I’ll keep breathing on and on
I’ll still be here when you’re gone
Through the pain I can see
Even when you won’t look at me
I may be under your foot
But you’re the one beneath me

Now go
Do it
End it
Kill yourself